alex's scatterings

sat in my half dark living room after a whole group of good friends have left listening to chilled out music.

i feel wonderfully content

and at the same time terribly sad

content that i have such good friends, and that im still in london, and that i have a great husband

and im not sure why i feel terribly sad. perhaps because this isnt my house, and home feels like a really distant concept

and that this isnt for the long term. we are likely to move again in a year.

its such an odd feeling. want to sit and loose myself in a book but instead im going out to watch a loud film with lots of people.

wonderfully content

terribly sad