January 2010
51 posts
just had an email form someone i only met once in a meeting saying how, how are you, praying for you guys at eden. ment so much to me.
and also today my old youth worker and froend facebooked me to see how i am.
means alot
maybe God reminding me he cares.
cares especially this week when things are so tough and shitty sometimes.
yeah, those two people will actually never know how massive...
i need more, i need life, i need to feel more...
first day back after a fleeting weekend. wasn’t too bad but soooo tired and head hurts. didnt sleep too well and my friend’s little girl woke at 2am being sick which helped nobody. early night tonight me thinks
home.
at last.
yesterday i was full of upset and aggrevation.
now i’m home, all i can be is happy.
so yesterday is best forgot.
better day today
and tomorrow i see phil :)
“You’re not the breath I breathe, just the sweet scent that I enjoy. You’re not...”
– (via iamblessed)
today was one of those days that makes me cry inside for who i am. when im runnign this asdam course i cant be ‘youth worker’ i have to be shouting, nagging, mean teacher person.
the kids push boundaries and are rude. and i have no power because this isnt my context, i dont know the school.
i hate it.
i want to be love to these kids, and im another person telling them to be quiet...
the week so far
in london working for a week
so very tired- half 5 starts all week
kids im working with are ok but swear every 5 seconds and by the end of the day i have lost all control
i am staying with my friend thought and his lovely wife and gorgeous 2 year old girl
i was sick yesterday (insecret not wanting to worry my friend) which sucked
i wont see phil til late friday and then have to leave away...
amysian:
Once a month, being a woman really, REALLY sucks.
That is an understatement.
It should be the law that we get time off/free chocolate/to walk around with our duvets/something pretty amazing. For real.
Ugh…
agreed
and i was sick at the same time yesterday, double wammy for me…
back from the sea. it was life giving
straight into manic youth group. life draining
exhausted but happy
sigh
in contentment/frustration/exhaustion/happiness
i sponsor a little girl who lives in haiti, and the country has been hit by a massive earthquake. could be weeks before i hear if she and her family are ok
spent an hour epilating my legs so they were beautifully smooth ahead of spending the morning in the pool/sauna/jacuzzi with some girl friends tomorrow… then it got cancelled… need another excuse to show off my beautiful legs… but’s freezing cold… gutted
this is where we are staying :) →
going to the seaside on thursday and staying over night :)
very excited
had a long discussion last night about eden, and how we feel right now. then we decided we needed to take that conversation to someone else. keeping it to ourselves wasn’t helpful. so we had coffee today with mr R. it was good. he said he knew how we felt. coudl see the frustrations. the fact we’re near failure. he brought glimmers of hope in diferent ways. the most reassuring thing is...
sleepy
had a lovely evening tonight with another couple who are on eden. need to spend more time with friends
frozen britain →
phil's joined tumblr :)
shaun of the dead
on the third atempt and because this time my brother bought it us for christmas i managed to watch the whole of shaun of the dead. this is the first and only zombie movie i will ever watch.
text i just received from a friend...
‘if someone had branches of a holly bush in their hands and they hit you guys so hard you both fell over- would that coubt as decking the Halls with boughs oh holly?
growing up i had a best of the 90s tape (despite the fact the 90s hadn’t finished yet) and on it was gangsters paridise. on my birthday phil let me play it in the car and this song came up. one of the lines reads- ‘they say i gotta learn but nobody’s here to teach me, if they can’t understand me how can they reach me?’ i think as a child i was subliminally conditioned...
rather than walking through the now over the shoe deep snow to co op to get emergency milk and then walking straight back phil and i took the sledge, walked via the steep hill in the park, raced down a few times, had loads of slightly scary fun, then bought milk and walked home :)
once ive eaten my tea i am going to...
… go sledging…
christmas tree went down
ive managed to do decent exercise everyday for the last three days :) getting swim suit fit for centre parcs at the beginning of feb
my husband went paintballing earlier with some young people from church- it was a birthday outing for one of them. phil also got the job of driving the minibus.
as he left the snow started coming down. had two phone calls now to tell me the paintballing centre is closed and they are stranded in the peaks. they are stuck in someones drive. they have managed to turn it round though so providing...
“A story involves a person that wants something and is willing to overcome...”
– Donald Miller - Living a Good Story, an Alternative to New Years Resolutions (via mrsteveheyes)
thanks, that was well worth reading ahead of my sit down reflection and thinking of the new year